I will not be rushed
I will not be rushed by technology
I will not match the pace of rapidly moving reels, impatient explanations, and ads yelling at me about something I need to fix.
I will not lose my soft sensuality to scrolling and stalking.
I will not sacrifice my ability to focus for freneticism. The beauty of attention well-paid traded for the modern multitasking empowered woman. My depth for distraction. Presence for profit.
I will not be rushed out of the house
I will not ungroundedly move from thing to thing—forgetting things along the way, distracted through the transition, and always on the verge of lateness.
I will not miss the entire series of moments of my life.
If you tailgate me, I will brake.
If you need me to go faster, I will wait.
I will not feel like extra time to prepare, deep breaths and a final look-around are luxuries. They are damn necessities.
I will not be rushed in conversation
If you incessantly interrupt, I will stop talking.
If you are unable to meet me in the moment, I will pitch a tent there.
If you continuously respond to something I didn’t say, I will say hello to that—and say less.
I will pause as I please and yawn as I need.
This presence is the fruit of decades on my knees rehabilitating the soil.
I will not be rushed into a decision
I will not be pushed into saying yes to things my body says no to.
Into making plans driven by shoulds.
Opportunities through obligation.
I will not be carried away by everyone else’s desires—only to re-discover mine starving and thirsty.
I will not fill my schedule with things that make me tense and days that make me want to cancel everything and run away.
My no is a wild spring; come drink.
I will not be rushed to share
I will digest and metabolize—all in my own timing.
There will be vast parts of me and my life that the world—the internet—will never know.
I will not participate in a system that says, “offer your unripened experiences for likes before you’ve even had a chance to swallow them.”
Rush fill more swipe next!
I will not exploit my energy for attention.
I will take my time embodying wisdom.
My silence will contain novels
I will not be rushed
